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i am sorry, but i really got to type this down, or write it, before i go bonkers or something.
Honestly, when my friends, best friends especially, comments about how i am as a person, on my sanity, on the way i act, about how they cant comprehend me, etc.
Even though there are times where they can expect me to tell them, like, the condition of my phone, me in the hospital, random staff and weird suggestions.

Drifting~ The original two things i wanted to blog about Makeup, and people who aren't receptive (I)
Very short, and simple.
Makeup i just realise doesn't serve to conceal, or to disguise. But to enhance what is already there, or should have.
How pale and detached my skin seems to be from the layer of foundation (concealer + primer), how the things surrounding your eye or on your pupil only worsens and affects the color of your sclera and limbus, and how the blusher further look unnaturally stuck onto my cheeks. Normally, blusher look as natural as when over-the-top looks like you got smack, or when applied in a streak seem like you got whipped. But in this case, what i learn today, it further enhanced how much i look like i am going to puke on your and pass out. I am not kidding about the way i look and about how i feel. But then again, we all have this times in our life, don't we. Times we feel so unwell, so uncomfortable that if a zombie come you prolly be not even running, that being a statue would be your only option, to give yourself and to pick from. Oh, thank you.

To people who might not still get it. Think, you put makeup because you look pale, but the make up doesnt conceal your paleness, it enhances what should have been. Ps.

Next, people who aren't receptive, this part gets me groggy now, because i am so tired i cant exert any much energy except to puke and grogginess.
Whatever man. People who aren't receptive, which we prolly get to know or bump a few; In however many or little ways they can be, one i am mentioning is those that can't be bother with what you are saying unless you are saying what they want to hear? You know? Is like so damn retarded when they ask for your honesty, but they don't accept it, they come out with different "truth digging" - techniques, methods or words, until you say what they want to hear or expected to get. SO DAMN RETARDED. Sorry, am i being too loud? Just kidding, i dont really care if some of the readers here are actually matching this fit, because if you are, you better start waking up.
Now i am have a tinge of guilt, but i am not going to stop, infact maybe i will, i will stop talking to people once they have their 'i am not receptive' mode on. What's the point? Some say, but maybe when they cooled down, they will reflect and think about what you've just say. pfft.
Oh and this bring about my intolerance of people who already set their mind on not doing something, or the kind of people that won't do anything but come out with so many excuses, reasons, and what nots techniques they have to make sure that they don't do it or not do anything at all. Example: Hey, i am sorry i can't make it tonight.
And i tell you, not matter what you do, what not do, or no matter what that person do or not do, it will end up with: Yup, i am really really sorry, really sorry, i promise to make it up to you. Sorry.  (sentence might vary but not very far from this version)

Oh please, if you know you are going to be sorry for something then don't do it. If you have to do it, then at least brace your self, have some decency to admit your error and really make it up. Or something. And you know, the fact that you have chosen something (A) over attending another (B), means you already prioritized (A) over (B), doesn't matter what you say or explain or resonate or do, because the fact is already there.
So at the least you can do is just disappear from (B). At least (B) can registers the fact that maybe you can be the number one in (B) perspective, but is certainly not the way about (B) when it is for you, from your perspective.

Okay, story ends here for today kids.
Goodnight.