"You might tried to wish for a shooting star"

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I can't find the perfect tense, nor pluperfect to describe this.

Growing up.
You know it when you know that you are. Literally. Its not like saying or realizing something, its something like as though you know hey i am so over this that i no longer want to go back or i no longer even miss that feeling. its like suddenly you are stepping into another world. That whatever you do, your perspective, the things that used to affect you this a way or that, its not the same any more and its not even weird.

The only thing that i am concern is that, why am i not concern about certain things any more? Things/people that used to affect me, that i used to worry about.
It sounded bad but personally i think it's good. At least i wouldn't cry as much i used to.
I tend to hide a little more negative emotions now, and expressive cheery emotions a little louder. I hope it is a good thing. I tend to share a little lesser now, speak a little more, and listen even more.

I don't know any more how am i different from what i used to be, simply because i know i have varied, changed and went through so much. It just doesn't bother me any longer because i will do and act what i feel right to me most. Whether is it to simply ignoring someone, to smile, or succumb to self defense mechanism.

Haha, it seems like i am getting long-winded again.
Just some personal thoughts in the middle of the night.

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