"You might tried to wish for a shooting star"

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I'm afraid depression and self wallowing would strike me again. It's feeling me up, i know it.
I pray, that perhaps my life would be better. Its not that God doesn't grant me the strength, but by my own lack of determination and perseverance, that i failed myself.

Perhaps because now that i have fallen so deep, and hurt myself in agony, that my heart literally start bleeding again. The kind of waters that flows, where it can not pour out anymore.
The kind of desperation that i must have, like a man lost in the desert searching for an oasis. The kind of control i must have, is like a priest. - Or perhaps not such extreme analogy i should put it.

To re-start, to start again, to achieve what i have set for myself. I realize things that i should have been doing. I should now do.

Usually i confuse myself, thinking that i am thinking in a way that i shouldn't. By what standards? because people couldn't comprehend? Then i should never let myself go to their level.
Why bother, when they insist you go down to their level. I rather distance myself, then trying to fit in.
Being banal, isn't that what people always not want? Yet these same people (everyday) tries to fit into some kind of circle for acceptance.

'If you want to make a change, you have to be the change' 
And in the same way, if you don't want to be like any other - to be unique (Or you are simply just different), stand on your own grounds rather than swayed to be something that you are not just so you can be accepted.
All you would have, would be excuses and excuses on how you can't do what you want, and what you love.

The point is simple: You didn't fight for it. (:
It's never too late for anything, and even so, it is always better to be late than never. 
I believe in second chances, and there are different ways on how you do/give it.
A thought/thinking should never ever be constraint, for the unbelievable and unimaginable growth it would not have if you do so.
Ever thought how people walked in their life to attain moments of fame?

They didn't have/do it because they were born with a silver spoon in their mouth, (Which i must agree is a very awesome attribute to have) but because they had a dream important enough for them to chase and realized it.

There are things i want to complete and achieve.
I must achieve.
Read more
Pray more
Slim down
Drive
Get into a local university in singapore
dance better a.k.a self upgrade, train, enter competition and win (whether positions/experience) and take reggae classes.
work on handicrafts
do more sports
hang out more with my family members

Leaving.
loves. p/s: i thought somewhere between these woods, someone could hear the whispers of my heart.
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