When there were still dreams, with glitters that fell like snow.

"You might tried to wish for a shooting star"

#TodayisadayYouhavemade

Saturday, 9 May 2015 || 10:06

Your Love is so high, Your love is so wide, Your love is so deep, So Strong and warmth and beautiful, perfect love.

Had such a huge quarrel yesterday with my partner, and i was thinking yet again why.. But deep down i was so secure in his love.. In a way i am so assured that he will not turn me away if i asked for him. Woke up this morning with semi swollen eyes - you know why; Thought i was going to be late for dance practice - that i have to cab - turns out i get to get my breaddie brekkie and not be late late.

Dance practice - for Gemmys. To be honest i am quite excited and well i am just pumped for a performance because it has been awhile since i've really danced and worked out at the least.
As for today, i did not exert much strength on my ankle - i kinda hurt it - which was good. Service was really good today, speaks about preparing the way for the Lord, and also to prepare yourself or the people so as to prepare the way for the Lord; And to seek the Lord first. That is, we ask God what He wants to do, and we follow, obedience to His will.

Lunch - Attempt to kinda skip lunch with just milk tea and bread - Well...

Headed to Cher's Graduation show over at Laselle - titled The Last Act 2015:
Was really lazy and tired but i dont regret going.
It was so good.
Like, wow.
I miss musicals and all those things.
Fires my passion of my own again.
Lord is so good.
He knows i need this.
Laselle is really a good place for students whom wishes to pursue arts - there is sota too but i have not been to any of their shows yet -

Really enjoyed my day, and the show marks the end of today, and yet we know not what comes tomorrow, with such great expectancy we shall. Praise the Lord.. Oh my soul!(:
Really Thank You Lord.

YAY. #Thankyoufather. #Missyou #Loveyou #thankyouforforgivingmethispunyhuman #AndforlovingmeasyourdaughterinChristandforgivingmelifeandsalvation #Forblessingmeandcallingmeofyourown

#IloveyouDaddy

Amen.

#Anditgoes

Sunday, 26 April 2015 || 02:15

COLOSSIANS 3:15,

"15; And let the peace of Christ rule in your hearts, to which indeed you were called in one body. And be Thankful."

So; It has been quite a week for me.

And to be honest, i am quite tired. Tired from all that drama, the inability, everything.

At the same time, i am mega grateful and thankful, that God was more accessible than ever, ~~or rather, i have made myself vulnerable to Him more than eve~~r. God is such a wonderful God.

He knows when it is, when it is.

Not saying that when times are good, he i no longer care, but he knows when to let His children run, and when to come home, and when to work.

He knows that we know that no matter when, or where, how and what, and why, we need Him more than ever, all the time.

I want to praise him, and worship him, and speak to Him, all the time if i can. Though, schedules can be drowning, though, i can be in fear of the Lord, But He is greater than that all.

When you realize, all that you have a choice in, all that you have and get to be busy with, comes from Him. You would realize; you would understood, and learnt, that He is God, our Lord,

Our father, the one who gives us all - that we hold, that we need or require, nothing more or less, because all is suffice, all is already more than enough for us to be and live in comfort,

or rather - some times - for us to conquer.

Hehs.

I love you Daddy God, the promises, the image i have of you, in me,

God, I will choose to follow you and love you and be faithful.

Guard my heart so i wont fall, Guard my heart so i wont be led by others - not of yours - and be astray; Guard my heart, realign and make it pure, so that i may see you, and i may stand firm in you.

(: Make me a strong and faithful and obedient child of yours.

God i love you, thank you for such of you mercy and grace, and for Loving me too.

Amen.

Things may get tough, but i am tougher, and my daddy the toughest (strongest) - no one can compare.

Hehs.

Amen!

#LiveandLove #EnjoyandLift #Staystrongandpray #Allofyouandme

#Undecidedtitle

Wednesday, 22 April 2015 || 08:40

"...I never allow for the situation for which i was in at the time to stop me from dreaming, and have a hope and have ambitions, beyond my current reality, it's almost like being imprisoned, if there is any inmates out there looking at this FB video i am talking to you."

"Sometimes a set back, is a set up, for God to compel you into something into something way beyond you can ever imagine. Almost like a slingshot. You can't be compelled this way until you get pulled back first. And then you fly, fly.., higher than the clouds.. carebears.. high in the sky."

"..So i wanna remind yall..that where you currently are in your life,...........whatever you are going through, personally, mentally, spiritually, emotionally, will not dictate what the outcome of your life and your career destined to be. I am asking that you don't give up; I'm asking that you ignore text messages and phone calls.. where they try to pull you away from your focus."

"....And.. Do not allow for your mind and your spirit (soul) to be depressed and give up hope, because of the current state of where you are.. Because only GOD ultimately has the blueprint and the plan of what the outcome of your life and your career is gonna be.. I am a walking living breathing testimony.. of that."

God's Test

God's test, will become your testimony at a certain point, and whatever you've been through.. You will always grow through what you go through, Your test is a part of your testimony. You are going to grow through what you continue to go through. If you see pain and misery and frustration and you've already been down that road, dont walk in the direction of pain and drama and problems; love yourself enough to say you deserve better, and it doesn't matter where you are financially, we all deserve to be happy, and because you only got two dollars in your bank account.. don't mean that you have to have two dollars and submerge yourself with dysfunctional - crazy and rigid people. What do you want the outcome of your life to be, and your career to be, it's starts now; Where you are today does not dictate the outcome of what your life and your career's destined to be...

To God be all the Glory.

God's test.. will become your testimony.

#StartNow #StartSharing #Spreadthelove #wordsofwisdom #LoveGodLoveyourselftoo #lovepeople #wisdom #courage #Godiswithyou Amen.

#Writings

Monday, 20 April 2015 || 06:28

I just can't.
They don't understand.
I don't understand.
I will believe.

I feel.. that deep down.. we need to be more than what we say.

Amen. God in you i trust. No matter what.
I know you are good, all the time.There is always a purpose for everything. I know.

Amen.

#Thoughts

Thursday, 16 April 2015 || 06:37

Was really having so much thoughts in my head.. it is just overwhelming..
And time to time i forget quotes.. ive seen, or heard, or thought of..
some times i remember them, some times i don't.

Anyway, went for prophetic class on Tuesday, class was really good. Because He is good.
Really, God moved, he was there, like always..

-Prayer life
-Joy
-God, Child, Blue flowers
-Children
-Assurance of Gifting(s)
-To Love on

I was happy this time when i heard all of it, such peace come upon me; then things happened.
I really don't know if this is a test or devil is trying to ruin, but i declare protection and safety over the seeds that has been planted in me. God will not allow the devil to kill, steal and destroy his children.

And he saves.

My Graduation was today.. planned to write something within, lengthy and all.
Guess next post or something (:

bye!

Day1 - Rehab

Sunday, 12 April 2015 || 07:16

Before my day ends, Lets recap.
So i cleared certain things that i had doubt. I realize the Spirit Man in us is so much more powerful than our own.. control.. of everything. I am grateful and thankful.
Started my work out again, realize i haven fully recover and that my stamina went down.
So, i am determined to kinda be more healthy. (:
My breathing seems weaker too. But yet, he gives me life and breathe. I love my own body, more than that i loved everything he gives me. Some times we dont know how to appreciate, or some times we dont see it.. but i will be thankful and i will give him praise for all he has for us is good, and good is He.

Gemmys is up. I hope i do not disappoint. I hope Daddy would like this dance that we prepared, thanking him for all he has equipped us and the Church, making everything and every serving possible.. that we are made clean that we are worthy as children of Christ to serve him, through Jesus Christ. Thank you Lord.

I began to see how i crave for intimacy and yet i am afraid of that very thing.
Yes.
I need that closeness and yet that closeness is scary;
It can be done with intention; Good or bad'
Well.. It is not us to judge aint it? And that is why it is scary.

And so here it is.

#MaybeMaybe

Saturday, 11 April 2015 || 06:23

Hi.

I am in such a mood now.. that i can't exactly describe..

but it felt like.. some thing is different.

& I decided to make my blog a come clean blog.

Not that i have not been truthful.

But rather, whether it is to be read,

I write.

Some people write extensively,

some perfected,

some pull your heart strings,

some ridiculous.

I just need somewhere,

that i can come clean.

I am not say.. going to start from the very start.

I guess i should some day.

So basically,

it is a new beginning.

I am not sure if it is just a on - off thing,

that would probably be not on effect the next post,

but this is how i feel now.

Today,

I felt that i slept too little, and yet too long.

I felt life and i felt alone.

I am thankful.

And i enjoyed to be used as a vessel for the Lord.

I love it when i get to serve the Lord.

I like to be in his presence.

To know he is here.

And to realize how much he loves me and cares for me and is there for me.

That i have a savior.

and it goes on and on.

As i was in the world (still)

and i faced with other humans.

sometimes i get overwhelmed.

Yes

You got that right.

I am overwhelming..

but i get overwhelmed sometimes.

Just,

acting is a gift.

So.

Today,

I felt as though i did not belonged in a dating relationship.

I felt abused all over again.

It is so contradicting.

but the world is so confusing.

Today,

when Pastor Peihan said..

we cannot be cooped in our nice and safe haven..

and not know the world..

but can i stay in my bubble?

This bubble nicely created for me?

Can i be single again?

At least they seem to love me better when they dont have me yet.

At least i wont get abused because there is no alone time.

And i will not get tangled because my heart did not plunge.

I rather keep my heart safe.

Lord, teach me, guide me.

If it is not what it is, or if it is what it is;

let it be according to your will.

- Anyway, i just find it that why people use maybe and maybe not together, is like ya i get it, if you say maybe means i might be or not be, and you say maybe not, means it might not be or end up be..

BUT IT IS THE SAME .