"You might tried to wish for a shooting star"

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Okay. So since my 90210 isn't done loading. Maybe i shall do some updating up here.

Alright. So in just less than one day, it's crossing to a whole new year. That's right , and i heard from a friend, do not go to the bathroom 2359 on the new year's eve, because you will be only coming out of the toilet next year. LOL.
Alright, jokes aside. I am sure everyone (Even guys) have what they want to do, or if they are unsure, still what you wanna do like next year. And i know, for some like me, prolly have already gotten a schedule book and filling the months out.

Honestly, i'm kinda worried for my future. Like am i going to make it? Like, is social science in SMU going to be a right choice for me? (Well, i actually think it's a better choice for me compared to other real sciences and IT or business.) Don't ask me why. I prolly can't put up a good debate/discussion for it right now.
That's why i guess, i some times have this wavering perseverance. Yet i do know, we should be optimistic, and i really really want to go to SMU. LIKE SERIOUSLY.

Anyway, i just got off topic. I hope everyone's got their resolution already and that no matter how small or fantastically it is going to be. I am sure it's going to make a difference. Because a change has been done from yourself. (: you aim it, *I sincerely hope so*, you did it and yeah. Next year's going to be a fantastic year. Make it your-year. (: Nobody deserves it more than you do, because it is by God's grace that we get to live on, day by day, year by year.
Okay. So am i making any sense?

HAHAHA! I am aiming it to be a better one. One that is going to be meaningful for all those that are going to be graduating with me. (:

Okay, i was suppose to blog about my day!!  (; went out with cell, watch Sherlock Homes - a game with the shadows.
LOVE y'all!!!!

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really. (:

I can't tell you.. HOW MUCH I MISS DANCING.





And, you know what?
I miss performing.


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I really just have to comment on this.
Why would boys think that every girl is the same. It is true that girls do fall for words and words, because actions often accompanied and works damn well with words. Is like saying don't go, and pulls a girl back in for a hug. It is like, having intimate moments with your loved without forgetting to tell the other how much you love and appreciate her for all she have done, and all she have given for you. 


See what wonders it could do. But then, If i put it this way (quite crudely, do not attempt to read this paragraph if you can't accept). Having sex with your girl, and after you cum you say *Omi~ I love you* 
Telling your girl how much you love her, listening to her woes and everything but your attention is divided.
Promising forever when you still care about her appearance for unimportant cause. 
Say whatever you can to cover up/ settle an arguments/ so that we can get over it and you can snuggle/hug/ kiss her. 
And one thousand and one scenario. It is different, words will then be as meaningless as one's accumulated wealth in place of death. 


Oh. Don't come to me and tell me oh its like this and all. I'm going to just ignore you. Or "Have you realize that there are two sides to a coin?" 
People can actually hear if what you say are truths. People can actually know what are you doing at the other side of the phone, whether you are whole-hearted or smiling. 
People actually do feel how you feel about them.
And the best part about it? People remember most not a person's image, not a person's speech, nor actions. People remember most about the moment, because of how they felt. YOU IDIOT. - Refers to me too.
I have to admit i have had people feel the way i shouldn't have made them felt. 




 I think i can stop here for now.  Nothing is everything (except for God), Especially spoken words when they do not come from where they should, and do not bode the meaning that it should hold. 
*If you still don't get it* It's just like a non-magician tries to cast a spell by saying an incantation.


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Alright! so i can't really focus on blogging as i watch 'Merlin' Gahh! Finishing the season, i hope i can find something as good as it. Or maybe better. (: 
Recently, it has been just new year shopping, christmas and school work. Progress for school work is a little slow, so it's going to be sleepless nights and locking myself in school/home. (: 


I am recently starting to love myself more, whilst trying to mind myself about losing weight. *It's ironic i know*
It is like saying chocolates are my one love, but i forbid myself to even think of it as good.Sin. In that case speaks of similar irony. (:






Alright, i shall stop with these nonsense! Though they aren't much of. (: 


Shopped alone for a day, and another day with my mates. 
The difference? I realized how much a front i put when i am among others and the people whom i know. 


So, i am not that true after all. (The irony)
"People often only knew the side, you allow them to know." It's prolly the very truth and we shouldn't blame anyone when at the end of the day, it's you who feel the loneliness of not being understood at all. 

- Anyone help me click on those eggs you find on my blog! Is on the left hand side, one pink one blue!

Starting from like a month back, i decided upon doing something in which i have had done before. Just that people often don't put it in much thought. When it comes to me. (:
Through my life, literally, things happened unexpectedly. I'm not referring to superficial things (Not saying what i list are, but you know - what I am referring to are things more intellectual/vibes/relationships/Etc.). 


I'm very touched and appreciate the people that actually cared/concerned/noticed/realized. (: Thank you. 
_ If there were pictures, it'd be easier. But then it would be how i am always_ Biased. 


*Decides to use italic font. (:* *Smirks*
I know i have been saying this like a hundred times, I haven been a real good friend.
I do not prioritise people/events/things in importance/closest to me, In a matter of attendance. Yeah. But i'd rush down to your side, and be damn there for you when you do need me. Most of the time, most of my friends, all do know how to take good care of themselves, and they actually take care of me rather then the other way round. 


I believe that whether its understanding someone, bonding, repairing a relationship, it's the same.
That it takes two hands to clap, one to be inquisitive, and one whom is willing to. 
& Just sometimes - or once, i feel/wonder if anyone would be interested to know or feel how i am feeling inside, or thinking. Haha, definitely all the lame stuffs. Which i now do not know if all the sharing have made it worth? Or should i just laugh it off myself. 


I am definitely missing these people: (Lost)
Jacyln, Lee Cheng Hoo, Soh Weixin, Ivan Tay, Fang yi, Xueling Chang, Arran Tan, Dhana Chandra, Wayne Chee yang yang, Hao Kiat, jovin, Kai Jing, 


These people: (Still here)
TSL, Er Hui Yuan, Reynard Lee, Ivan Tan, Winnie seah, Siewmin, Alvin, 


Loving and thankful for: (Forever and ever)
Michelle Lee, Jerome Sim, Cassandra seto, 


The Love: (random Happiness) 

Labels: Definitely, one day onwards. I will find you. (:

Goals for this coming week,
- Complete my Website's basic functionalities
- Complete design also.
- Get my weight to 56kg. (:
- Able to do handstand at one go
- Able to do split at one go

I'm thinking of you. And i you.
Old english. I found back my love. (:

Boo ya! (:

I haven really been up to anything, unless you count planning them as. (:
Well, studies - project and Merlin were the only things i guess taking up my time. With one or two session of dance and facebook time.

Don't really feel like talking too. Been Missing for awhile. People would assume any other way. I rather leave it.
Don't tell me it's me, and even so, i wouldn't rebuke. Just try your best to justify things that should be, and not how you personally see.

Alone. Isn't that terrifying after-all. (:


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I'm afraid depression and self wallowing would strike me again. It's feeling me up, i know it.
I pray, that perhaps my life would be better. Its not that God doesn't grant me the strength, but by my own lack of determination and perseverance, that i failed myself.

Perhaps because now that i have fallen so deep, and hurt myself in agony, that my heart literally start bleeding again. The kind of waters that flows, where it can not pour out anymore.
The kind of desperation that i must have, like a man lost in the desert searching for an oasis. The kind of control i must have, is like a priest. - Or perhaps not such extreme analogy i should put it.

To re-start, to start again, to achieve what i have set for myself. I realize things that i should have been doing. I should now do.

Usually i confuse myself, thinking that i am thinking in a way that i shouldn't. By what standards? because people couldn't comprehend? Then i should never let myself go to their level.
Why bother, when they insist you go down to their level. I rather distance myself, then trying to fit in.
Being banal, isn't that what people always not want? Yet these same people (everyday) tries to fit into some kind of circle for acceptance.

'If you want to make a change, you have to be the change' 
And in the same way, if you don't want to be like any other - to be unique (Or you are simply just different), stand on your own grounds rather than swayed to be something that you are not just so you can be accepted.
All you would have, would be excuses and excuses on how you can't do what you want, and what you love.

The point is simple: You didn't fight for it. (:
It's never too late for anything, and even so, it is always better to be late than never. 
I believe in second chances, and there are different ways on how you do/give it.
A thought/thinking should never ever be constraint, for the unbelievable and unimaginable growth it would not have if you do so.
Ever thought how people walked in their life to attain moments of fame?

They didn't have/do it because they were born with a silver spoon in their mouth, (Which i must agree is a very awesome attribute to have) but because they had a dream important enough for them to chase and realized it.

There are things i want to complete and achieve.
I must achieve.
Read more
Pray more
Slim down
Drive
Get into a local university in singapore
dance better a.k.a self upgrade, train, enter competition and win (whether positions/experience) and take reggae classes.
work on handicrafts
do more sports
hang out more with my family members

Leaving.
loves. p/s: i thought somewhere between these woods, someone could hear the whispers of my heart.
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